Regret

Yesterday, God spoke to me about living a life of no regrets.

I have done so many things I regret. I regret slacking in Secondary School. I regret wasting time not seeking the Lord. I regret loving the things of the world more than God.

I look at my life and I think to myself, what if I had spend all the time I wasted just seeking God a bit more?

What if I had done more bible study for just 15mins a day more? What if I had perservered a bit more? Questions that have no end, nor answer.

I look back sometimes at my secondary life and JC life and I ask myself - how much closer have I grown to God? Honestly, I feel real shallow. Sometimes my leaders tell me I have grown. I agree - growth in areas people see. What about my prayer closet? What about my daily devotion?

Those areas are unseen by the eyes of Man but transparent and clear in from God's view.

Live a life of no regret.

I look at my friends, people of my age. I see the passion. I see the quiet ocnfidence and trust. I see prayer giants in them. I ask myself - what are you spending your time on? What kind of devotion do you offer the Lord?

Today I read Acts 10 - v4 says,"...Your prayers and gifts to the poor have come up as a memorial offering before God"

I really want my prayers to be a memorial Lord! But my heart is so harden! I want to stand before Jesus and before us stands a pillar of prayer!

May my life always reflect His beauty and love!

Don't regret. Don't live in regret. Don't look back and say I could have done this or that. Don't wait till 5yrs later, when all your friends are moving on with the Lord and then you start thinking about your life!

"Man who build kingdoms and man who build thrones, heaven does not know their name" - Jason Upton

Yet, we can't discount God's timing and sovereignty in our lives. Everything is made perfect in His plans. So I am comforted. Henceforth, I will try to live a life and make decisions I won't regret.

My dad always told me, ' Whatever I do, make sure I don't regret doing it.' SImple, yet so true.

Lord, help me. Because I can never do it.