Unappreciated

I feel unappreciated.

A combination of two events occurred today.

1. My English class took remedial from one of my colleagues. Now, that's fine. But when they heard I was helping her, one student sneered and said," Huh? Don't want la." Whoa, that tipped the scales.

2. The briefing for the exam schedule took place after school. It dawned upon me again : Relief teachers are the outcastes of the teaching world. My friend was given an absolutely apathetic remark when she brought up her query.

Back to event no. 1. It sure doesn't feel good. I admit, I don't exactly know how to teach them. Their class is pretty hard to handle. I feel like I'm talking to myself most of the time! I know this shouldn't affect me in such measure, but it did. Sure ain't feeling good. Then again, in retrospect, I must say I don't think I am as dedicated to them as my colleague helping them. Maybe that distinguishes her from me.

Like I said, na de qi, fang de xia: Can take up, also can put down. (translated literally.)

Shan't dwell too much on that.

Wondered how Jesus felt when nobody appreciated His efforts. Wonder how it feels to bear the burden of sin with the feeling of His disciples abandoning Him. Must have felt worse than how I feel now.

Lord, may I never let You down. Help me to always remember You and not take You lightly!

Anyway, today, I didn't get the chance to evangelise. Ate lunch with my colleagues and thought I had to rush up to help. In the end, I spent the remainder of the day typing out stuff for Sound ministry.

Just got home. Exhausted.