"At least he tried"

Think it was Rick Warren who said he wanted these four words on his epitaph.

Well, I have put those four words up on my wall. To always remind me to keep trying. And keep trying I will.

Till the day I die to self, sin, and all worldly desires.

Till the day I fulfil the high calling of God in my life.

It's funny. I feel highly motivated. =P Whenever I watch tv or something, I always mumble to myself,"This guy, purposeless,causeless in life." Or,"Wah, at least this one got purpose. At least he fight for something."

I want to try and fight for His cause. To know Him and make Him known.

Updates!

Wow! Time flies and it's the end of the first week of my holidays; or what's left of it.

God is real good. He spoke to me through all three services last Saturday and Sunday. I'm so glad to have found a new spiritual home.

I believe God is really doing a new work in my life. And I've gotta let Him do it. These past few tumultous weeks/ months have exposed me for who I truly am inside. Through this time, my masks of ministry/position, things to do, school, etc have been taken off and I've gotten a good look at what's been brushed under the carpet of my life.

Boy. It sure looks messy. =P

Thank God for this wilderness that I'm going through. It's a real blessing to have the great and mighty King take so much trouble, and time to invest in my life. To manufacture this whole thing so that I can face my real self and to give me the grace, strength, encouragement to press on.

Hosea 6:3 "So let us know, let us press on to know the LORD. His going forth is as certain as the dawn; And He will come to us like the rain, Like the spring rain watering the earth."

Come to me like a rain Lord, wash me over.

Food!

The song that is ringing in my heart right now is “Free” by Planetshakers, in their new albums Free and All for love. I’m counting down to my last day in my Internship.

Right now, I’m enjoying a Ice-blended chocolate with peppermint. It tastes exquisite. All that chocolatey goodness in every mouthful, makes you want to just drink more and more. Add in that extra peppermint and it tastes all the more heavenly. Glorious! =) For those of you working at Raffles Place, you can order in! Check out the webby!

http://www.eelingocoffee.com/ Think they might have other branches also…

Anyway, here are some good food stalls I’ve savoured over the course of ten weeks here at Raffles Place.

1. Amoy Street Food Market

1^st floor – Beef Kway Teow

I’ve tasted the ‘teochew’ beef kway teow and I must say it is quite tasty. It costs $3, which is reasonably cheaper than other eateries at Raffles place. The soup was light but tasty. They gave substantial slices of beef and other stuff.

For me, it is a pale comparison of the almighty East Coast Park Beef Kway Teow. Oh well, beef is better than chicken anytime.

1^st floor – Prawn noodles

Oh the magnificent rich brown stock,the succulent prawns, and that melt-in-your-mouth pork ribs… It just blows your mind away. How do I describe the soup, it has that deep prawn and pork taste that leaves you wanting for more. It’s different from the others I’ve tasted. The soup is thick and very tasty.

2^nd floor – Lor Mee

My mum says the lor mee isn’t nice. I beg to differ. It’s the traditional hokkien lor mee that has the strong 5 spice smell in the gravy. The ingredients are fresh and compliments the gravy.

I think that’s about it for now la. It’s 530pm so I won’t continue anymore… haha.

Intership

I’m back from lunch early today. Time flies and it is the end of internship!

I can’t understand why my grey pants always has that ‘damp’ smell. It is the kind of smell that only goes away if you sun-dry your clothes. My mum did hang the clothes out to dry. I really wonder why.

Well, internship has brought me a peek into the marketplace. What it feels like to wear a shirt and tie just to sit at a desk and stare at a screen.

Some thoughts about the corporate life and other random stuff :

1. MRT

Every morning, a thousand and one persons jostle, squeeze, push, force their way into the train as they go to work. There’s the occasional auntie that runs with her noisy heels up the escalator, shoves everyone at the train entrance, trying to squeeze into the already sardine-packed cabin. My goodness. Does anyone know that the next train comes in two minutes????

2.Food

I regret wasting all that money on expensive cai fan. Only towards the end of the ten weeks of PA did I discover $3 cai fan. I paid $4.50 for a plate of rice with 1 meat dish and 2 vegetables! It’s quite funny how my mindset changed after 2 months at raffles place. A meal costing $5 is considered cheap! (I used to think $3 for cai fan was expensive.)

3. Inner voice

On the first day of my internship, at a briefing conducted for all of us noobs, the person told us that in the office, people don’t shout and talk loudly. It was on that very day that I was introduced to the inner voice.

The inner voice is a unique part of everyone. Girls understand it more than guys (on the presumption that girls talk softly and gently – there are exceptions of course). I have discovered the inner voice in me. That soft, gentle pseudo whisper that I utilize in my communications in the workplace.

The only problem with this is that, on Saturdays/ Sundays, when you try to sing in service, it feels really strenuous to do so.

This has also made me understand the importance of using your voice to sing and the need the warm up your voice.

4. The lack of social activities

I think I say less than 20 sentences in the 8hrs in office. There really isn’t much talking, since you’re an intern and you don’t really know many people. Anyway, any socializing or non-work activity is frowned upon. That is why I am typing this in a word document to make it look like I’m doing my work. (oops.)

5. The increased agility and speed of your fingers

Sometimes when I get really bored (like now) I’d be engaged in non-productive activitied like blogging, reading people’s blog or reading the news. This probably happens approx. 20% of the time. So when my spider senses, or rather people’s noisy heels, tell me that someone will be walking by my desk, I quickly press alt+tab. I’m pretty good at that now. =)

Yawn. I’m getting sleepy already. 3.5 more hours to go!

Finally a post.

I have decided to update my blog while at work. How time flies. I’m already in my 9^th week of work.

Slightly bored, so blogging now. =)

“The mystery of the full dustbin”

Every morning when I come to work, the dustbin underneath my desk is always full! I don’t know who comes and dumps all that stuff into my bin! This morning, I checked and I found a namecard with a Japanese name written on it. Wow, I’ve got some kind of special dustbin. People from all over the building come to my place just to dispose of their trash. Haha.

Well, nothing much about work anyway. I think life here has been good. I really enjoy my work, although it gets slightly monotonous at times.

I realize I am person who likes to do things and keep doing the same till I am a master of it… Don’t know if you get what I mean, but I just like to fine-tune my processes till I can function at a rate I deem efficient.

Anyway, this marks a new week for me. Last Saturday was my first Saturday at Cornerstone. And I am so so refreshed! I can’t explain it, but all I can say now is that there is so much excitement brewing within me!

I can’t wait for the weekend to come because I know I’m gonna meet up with friends and the awesome presence of God. =)