Success!

Today was my first try at making vongole pasta! It was a whack! =)

The correlation between singing and exam papers.

What a way to end with a bang! The last paper was a KILLER. I can't believe it was so difficult! The past year papers were smoke screens for the horror hidden in this year's paper!

I was panicking throughout the paper. I kept telling myself, die die, this one sure jia lat, wah the paper super duper hard, sian man...

I'm just glad that I managed to compose myself. And I did manage to finish the paper. Phew.

At 1115am, with fifteen minutes to go, I was smiling to myself. I just couldn't wait for the paper to end. The holidays are here!! =)

One thing that I realised that calms me done during my exams is singing to myself.

I would get this song in my head, and while furiously scribbling illegible my answers, I would sing the song.

Today's song was super appropriate for my killer paper. I was singing Divine Exchange. Haha.

Divine Exchange

The promise of God

2 Peter 1:3 - "seeing that His divine power has granted to us everything pertaining to life and godliness, through the true knowledge of Him who called us by His own glory and excellence."

Just some food for thought.

God gives His power to overcome sin, to overcome life, to deal with every situation in life, to be able to excel in our workplaces, and yet attain to a godliness in our character, actions and thoughts.

It reminds me that whenever I strive to become more like Him. the source of power is God Himself. Now that's a really cool thought. It's like going for exam with the ultimate kungfu manual.

And God doesn't make it difficult for us to find this manual of answers, we don't need to go to some cave in some remote forest.

God is my Deliverer and my Provider.

God teach me to apply all diligence as your Word says so.

It's the relationship that matters.

It's quite funny how over the course of this week and the weeks before, I've been asking God really fundamental questions about life. Questions like : What am I here for? What is my purpose in everyday living? They seem to be pretty prominent in my thoughts recently.

I've come to a point where I wonder about my purpose in existence, and the meaning and relation to God in the daily activities that I do.

Ever since leaving my old church, I've been serving way much less than before. And in this period of rest, minimal ministry stuff, it seemed as if God was stripping it down and allowing me to rediscover.

I just had zone meeting on Friday and the eyes of my heart popped out when Newson said this, " Everyone will ask three basic questions in their life. One, "Who am I?" Two, " What am I doing?" And three, "Why am I doing?" It's quite cool how sometimes, when God speaks to you, He really hammers the nail at the exact spot.

If I could sum up what I go out of the sharing, it would be the word 'relationship'.
I wondered why I couldn't see it. It was as if on Friday night, my blind eyes were open ( Bob Mendelsohn shared about the blind man today =) and I suddenly understood.

Learning to make christianity a relationship and not a job. =) It's not about performance!

And so I've decided to rediscover my relationship with God. It's like a second honeymoon, for a lack of a better expression. =P

The year of shaking and thoughts on true fellowship

I've realised more and more that this is really a year of shaking for me.

God really wants to strengthen the weak areas in my life. This year, I've come face-to-face with the big issues in my life. I can't help but look back at the past 10months and go "Wow, so many things have happened!"

One thing caught my attention during the T&E class yesterday. I felt God tell me the need to keep standing upon the convictions and prompting of the Holy Spirit.

It doesn't matter what other people do. If God told me to stop doing it or start doing something, I must obey!!!

I think one thing the Lord has really convicted me of this season is my relationship with people.

I tend to put on different sets of glasses for different people. Some people get the "Everything you say is not credible" glasses, some get the "Too serious" glasses while some get the "Avoid at all cost!!!!!!!" pair of specs.

And I realised that everything they say or do is filtered through the lens of biases I've formed.

This affects the way I respond to people.

So I really want to learn to treat others with gentleness and respect, and season my speech with salt. Learning to put on Jesus' spectacles of love, impartiality and grace. More and more, I feel the need to be an edifier, rather than a discourager or more bluntly put a pain in the neck. True fellowship, speaking into one another's lives must become part of my speech!

Time to remove the specs and put on God's contact lens.

Second Chance

Just finished attending T&E- Elementary Truth 202.

It was as if God was letting me "lay again" the foundation of basic truths as Hebrews 6:1-2 puts it.

I really want to make it right this time. Looking back, I feel I have neglected a lot of basic things in my christian walk.

This is my chance to make it right. Today at T&E, the teacher was talking about making decisions. It was as if God has presented me another chance at 'starting over'.

Ps Yang was talking about a kairos moment. I think this is mine.

Signed, sealed, delivered

Today was the day I signed my first contract to my first job! =) By the grace of God, I'm employed! =)

It was an interesting start to the day. I actually woke up LATE.I was quite panicky this morning - had to be there at 10am. When I opened my eyes, it was 905am! Gosh. Thank God I made it there by 10.05am.

I feel that I as I take up this job, it's as if I've taken up a entire new way of making decisions in life.

I guess this is how I want to live, always looking towards Him ,and waiting for Him to speak.

On the train ride back home, it occured to me that in the future, decisions would be bigger, with bigger consequences.

It was as if God puts me through a series of tests to see how I react. =)

This is my surrender God.