Oh man. Never felt like this for so long. The feelings of uncertainty and doubt have been clouding my mind since yesterday. A recent spat of events have left an indelible mark on my consciousness. How should I describe how I feel? I don’t really know. A mixture of fear, ‘sian-ness’, tiredness; mostly negative? Hah. Well, I suppose that can’t be help. Ironically, I always tell my kids to keep their heads up and always remember that God will pull them through finally. The words are hitting home real hard. It’s quite hard to see the light at the end of this tunnel I am traveling on. I will press on. Because I believe in what I tell my young ones to do. I truly believe God’s going to pull me through and that at the end of the road I will find myself a person better equipped for His use.
I find myself in a dilemma, not knowing how long it will end. All I long for is for God’s will to be done. Yet I will learn to praise Him in my suffering (It isn’t really painful..heh.) cuz’ that’s what I have always been saying! Time to put it into action!
So help me Lord, cuz my heart is weak. I can’t sense the peace nor see the light. I do know, however, Your hand. The markings of a palm callous and strong.. One that I have held onto and will hold on to. Keep chiseling Lord, it’s easier now, then it would be in the future. Let me keep my eyes on Your face Lord!
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