Welcome back! Wow! Church Retreat has really been a retreat for me! It was such a wonderful time of listening to God and letting God affect a greater part of my life!

Well, God spoke to me during the camp.

If you do read my previous entries, I think I mentioned about having a child-like faith.

In God's timing, nothing is coincidental. When I went for camp, Lill spoke about being a child again. And it rang through in my heart.

I really felt the need to return to being a little kid in God's eyes.

Some things just hit you really hard, even though they seem like truths that everyone should understand and know.

I was kneeling at the altar on Wednesday night, and God re-affirm His love for me.

You see, I have always never felt good about myself, diving myself into God's work and putting on a mask. I've allowed ministry, at times, to mask my vunerabilities.

During camp, I had NOTHING to do- well almost. And it felt quite uncomfortable. I have come to realise that serving had been a form of escape for me. Don't ask me why, but focusing on work turned my eyes away from letting God deal with me.

And so He did during the camp. God really showed me and told me that He could be my everything; if I let Him be. All those wonderful verses of love and God's faithfulness became so so real.

I felt the Lord's embrace. It's an indescribable feeling. It just makes you bail and wail. Overwhelmed.

I like to 'feel' His presence. I like to always have the 'loved' feeling. But I guess God, doesn't always make it as such; if not, my walk with God would be totally reliant on my emotions.

Felt the Lord tell me to walk in faith in this area - to trust Him to be my all. To know that His words ring through even through the valley.

Can't elaborate properly because I just woke up. Still quite sleepy. All Glory to Him, because even when we are faithless, He is faithful.

Lord, thank You that Your love is never ever measured by what we are, what we do, or the sins we committed. It is without condition. I can never fully understand the depths of Your love. But I know it's deep enough to warrant my full response. So Lord, I love you. I try to Lord. I really do. Amen.