Touched by the Greater

God has been speaking to me. And when He does, He turns you inside out and upside down.

Ever had the feeling of dissatisfaction, wondering what's the bigger picture in your life? Somehow, I felt life didn't serve up that great a purpose in mugging and working and the normal course of life. Deep deep inside, it was as if God was planting a seed.

First it was the hunger to see my friends and family saved. Then, when Ps Yang preached at Colours on Sunday, somehow, things fell into place. I was so gripped by what he was saying. I felt as if the Holy Spirit was looking through my facade into the deep recesses of my true feelings.

I felt as if, God had meant something greater than this. Honestly, I don't even know what to do about it. Quit my job? (kidding la!) Sell all I have and then go sit on the streets like Heidi Baker? Go full-time?

Don't exactly have the clearest picture. For now, there's a burning desire to strive even more to live for the eternal. I have been touched by the Greater.

GYM-craze + School

Well, school has started. And I've never felt more driven to do well, and mug hard. Well, that's partially due to the fact that if I get a B next sem, my honours will drop by one rung. I'm living on a thin thread. So this semester, I'm gonna give my best and mug very very hard!

Anyway, I'm doing this tax module on tax planning and all. The class is crazy! I feel "noob-ified" but the zai people in my class. But there seems to be this innate joy, excitement, desire, passion when I sit through the tax class.

Some people reading this might be going ," What?!! TAX?"

In retrospect, it was quite crazy that God would slant my decision towards a tax job. Now I know why.

Apart from that, it seems that this gym craze has possessed me. I've been feeling very excited about gym-ing these two weeks!!!

On a more introspective note, I need to learn to wait and be patient in many areas of my life. Like what Ps Lip said about making important decisions : "God if you don't speak, I won't move."

More 2009 resolutions

Ok here are some more "wants" to achieve in 2009. Won't call them resolutions, becuz I don't think I would have enough will, time, energy to follow through all of them.

1. Write more songs!! I must get down to writing songs. Or at least trying.
2. Study the Bible topically.
3. Read Chinese newspaper 15mins a day - this is a real challenge. But I must improve on my mandarin!

Ok that's about it. Anymore, and I don't think I can manage. =)

2009 Resolutions

After some thought, here are some goals I hope to achieve in 2009

1. Plant myself in Cornerstone - start serving, and owning the church! And availing myself for service. Think it's time.

2. Focus on God - making a conscious effort to choose Him, to obey Hi, to love Him above all else. I also want to draw closer to Him this year.

3. Grow in His word - I want to set aside time daily/ weekly to study God's word. Never got down to doing that on a routine basis last year.

4. Prioritise family! - I want to spend time with them! It might be tough, considering that I would be starting work in the 2nd half of the year.

5. To run the Stan Chart 42km marathon!

Goodbye 2008, Hello 2009!

Goodbye 2008!

Time really flies. All I can do at this point on the very last day of 2008 is stand amazed at how the Good Shepherd has led me thus far.

What a tremendous journey this year has been. Looking back, I've experienced more grace, more freedom, more love and more of His presence. I bow in humility before my Maker for His grace, tenderness and patience toward me.

There are many things to thank God for, so let's see how the post develops. =)

1. Thank the Lord for planting me in a new church. I feel like some wild branch grafted into the Cornerstone vine. Haha. After 6months here, it's starting to feel more and more like home. Really grateful for Saturday Life, Sunday services, Daily prayer meetings, cell meetings, zone meetings, zone outings, and what not!

Another thing I'm grateful for is specifically the prayer meetings. The atmosphere at the prayer meetings were really overwhelmingly awesome. I thoroughly enjoyed singing and praying my lungs out, just seeking His face and bringing our requests before HIm.

2. Thank the Lord for shifting my perspectives about many things in life.

In particular, a pursuit of excellence. I've learnt that God is involved in ALL areas of my life, and that every area of my life must be lived for His glory! And what better way than to excel and pursue your best in each and every endeavour.

Secondly, I've also learnt to look beyond the four walls of church, the geographical boundaries of Singapore, and extend my sight to the nations. It's just awesome to see God moving in other nations. It's also a burden to carry the issues in the world upon our hearts. Really thank God for that.

3. Thank the Lord for more time with family. Can you believe it, my mum gave me a christmas present! This is unheard of in the Tay family. Haha. I've also realised that my mum talks to me more. My brother is also more vocal and speaks a lot more. (for those of you who have met him, if he speaks more than 10words to you, it's like a breakthrough!)

I could only thank God for this signs of breakthroughs in my relationships at home. I'm looking forward to being an even better example and a brighter light for the Lord.

So much for retrospect.

It's time to look forward and run. It's also time to leave behind all the baggage of my past. My sins, my failures, my mistakes and my wrong choices.

Really looking forward to 2009, a lot of things happening!

Hello 2009!