Late Nights

Hmm, such an ungodly hour. Yet I'm still wide awake. The mood's pensive. Don't know why. But it's just another great moment to blog! Hah.

My curtains are down and in the laundry so that means I on public display. Anyway, the skies look rlly nice and calm. Peaceful. A complete opposite of what life is like in the day.

Regrets. That's the word on one of the boy's MSN display.

Any regrets in my life? Plenty. Self-induced, one too often. I wonder what it would be like if all my sins were counted against me. I'd be lost for words, actions, and reaction.

I don't know. How can I respond for the countless misdeeds? How can I stand righteous for the wrongdoings?

Forgiveness. We all need it. Constantly.

Sometimes I look in the sky and I wonder what life would be like if I didn't do certain things. Or make errors that on hindsight were so impetous and rash. Hmm. I can only imagine.

Well, enough retrospect. I guess, I still stand by His grace.

Hope. Of what is unseen and what has been promised.

I wonder what iit would be like when I graduate and start working. A short conversation on the MRT home reminded me of how vicious the corporate rat race is. Or so they say it is. Well I still run the Race?

God protect me and strengthen me. I don't want to stop running!

Taste of Heaven

Wonder what's it like to taste glory?

Wonder how it really feels to enter God's presence and just sit there and let Him reveal Himself to you?

Where the music stops, the people fade, and your eyes are closed. Emotions are intense. There's this burning desire inside to reach out for more. There's this presence that envelopes,encompasses, and engulfs.

You feel hungry, yet you are filled. You want more, but there's nothing more to ask for.

You want to lift your hands, you want to give more. You feel the need to give more.

You feel the need to sing. You want to sing your heart and lungs out to Jesus. You want to play on your instrument and express your feelings.

It's beyond words. You gotta experience it yourself.

Yearn. Desire. Expect.

One of those nights again.

I remember 'writing' a song in the days of my foolish youth. It went something like,

"It's one of those nights again,
When I think of your lovely face."

Can't remember the rest of the lyrics. Interpret it anyway you like. Hah.

Well, it really is one of those nights. Can't get to sleep, don't know what to do till the next day.

It's been a great day! Sermon was great, challenging. I really enjoyed myself today in service. I feel God is challenging me to really put my family first. Hmm, one of the hardest things to do.

It's never been easy witih family. The walls of silence, have made talking uncomfortable and unusual. Maybe it's time to break it.

Been sneezing too often these days. Wonder why.

Have typed enough to induce drowsiness. Time to turn in.

A long long time

Wow, it's been a while.

It seems late nights make a person more vulnerable to emotion and reflection. And thus this entry.

Well, sem2 of Uni life seems much much easier compared to sem1. Don't know why albeit the heavier schedule.

Well, tonight I am reminded of how fleeting one's experience is with the experiences of this world. Why do I say that? And in what respect?

Well, I always remember Lester and his super enthusiasm for his CJC. (No offense man, LOL) But it always reminds me of how easy it is to have fun, enjoy life and then forget about the rest.

I'm feeling it now. Not that enjoying yourself is bad, then I would be leaning to ascetism. Hah. But, sometimes, I feel as if I rather enjoy school study my best, and then forget about it.

How about my friends? How about their souls? It still bugs me.

Friendships lasts, but salvation is forever. Hmm.

I am reminded once again that I've been called out of this world as well. And yes, Lester's "I want to make my first million by 30." has struck a thought. Sorry man, but you're the man!

Easy for me to say, but when the time comes for me to pay for my loans, give money to my family, it makes me wonder whether I will fall unknowingly into the rat race.

"Pray, lest you fall into temptation." I don't know about tomorrow, but I know who holds my hand. Guess I just gotta stick close to Him.

DEath Note

Death knocks unknowingly and almost always at the wrong time.

Today's newspaper reported a death of a 16 year old boy near who stays near my place. So untimely. So sudden.

It almost seemed like a bad dream. It became reality.

One more soul gone forever. Has he been saved? Has he heard the gospel?

I am seriously jolted from my comfort zone.

Last night, some of us went ot Geylang for dinner. A friend of mine popped a question, " I wonder who shares the gospel to the people in GEylang. "

That sentence stuck with me throughout. I really wonder who shares the good news with them.

I am really at a loss. I really need to pray. Because the need is real.

Some of us toy with good Christian concepts, while souls out there are being lost.